Written by:
Kristin Egener
Photographer:
Laimah Osman
Hellooooo, cyber-journal. Mom's yelling up the stairs at me to stop "stomping" around in my boots, so I guess I'll put my headphones on and vent by writing.
I need SOMETHING to drown out all the stress and worry that's going on in my head! Grrrr . . .
I just don't know what to do. School starts again tomorrow (junior year! Yay! I've almost served my sentence in hell!). But that also means I'll have to start up that bogus "relationship" with Brad again. Mr. Egomaniac started harassing me last week when I got back from camp, saying he wanted to check up on his "little girlfriend" (bleh!) to make sure some guy didn't run off with me over the summer. I wanted to say, "No, no GUY ran off with me, but I did hook up several times with my fellow counselor Tory, the incredibly hot leader of the Pee-Wee Troop."
Of course I didn't really say that. But how AM I going to tell him?!? I mean, I don't have to tell him about Tory, but at some point it's gonna be evident to him that I'm a flaming dyke, maybe when I seduce his sister ;-) heehee, just kidding — sort of. Anyway, I'm just worried that he'll "out" me to everyone. I don't think I'm ready to walk around with a big neon "DYKE" sign yet; I mean, nobody else is out and the kids everyone thinks are gay get constantly harassed and sometimes beaten up.
Even if he doesn't out me, he'll prob'ly think me wanting women is kinky and won't take it seriously, so I'll have him still hanging on me. Or maybe, just MAYBE, he'll understand. Hmmm . . . I don't think so. He definitely skipped class the day they taught "Being a Sensitive Modern Male." WHAT was I thinking when I got together with him?
Grrr!!
Well, so long until my next crisis.
<*smooches*>
~Regina
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